Once Upon A Time

There was a moment -      brief - when I believed life    had endless possibility.      DISILLISIONMENT. Fourteen years old -      my father died      my adopted brother sent back   A family of four -      suddenly a family of 3         when my father died Seven months later      we are a family of two         when my brother is... Continue Reading →

Writing About the Hardest Moments

hard (adj.): •requiring a great deal of endurance or effort. •difficult to bear; causing suffering. -New Oxford American Dictionary   Caring for an aging parent with Alzheimer’s involves many things that are hard: looking on as her body withers; dealing with whatever today’s health crisis is; watching helplessly as her mind drifts and slowly fades... Continue Reading →

The Uninvited Guest: Four

I don’t recognize this woman who claims to be my mother. She looks like my mother though older, more frail. Her hair is whiter so too her skin - it is whiter more pale, like crepe-paper; ashen, lacking life. This woman says she’s my mother, remembers things about me that only a mother would know.... Continue Reading →

A Brief Consideration of Lettuce

Consider lettuce. Visually, it's a thing of beauty with its bright, healthy colors: variations of green, some yellows, and some with various hues of red.  Lettuce on a white plate is a thing of beauty to be admired. Why, then, does lettuce become a horrifyingly gross, abhorrently repugnant, nauseatingly repulsive thing when it's stuck between... Continue Reading →

The Uninvited Guest: Three

I responded badly. This is the challenge of dealing with someone who has Alzheimer’s: having to learn to speak a new language; having to learn new ways of responding; having to learn that the usual, conditioned responses are no longer acceptable. Mom was watching “Blue Bloods” last night - ION TV has the show on... Continue Reading →

The Uninvited Guest: Two

Dementia. Alzheimer’s. The words are like the two lenses in a pair of glasses. Once you hear the words being used to describe someone you love, once you put the glasses on, everything comes into focus. Everything seems sharper, clearer. Events, memories, conversations - all make more sense. The lenses make the things in front... Continue Reading →

The Uninvited Guest: One

Yesterday. The Endocrinologist - for her diabetes. Once we were in the exam room, I told mom I needed to step out and use the bathroom. A lie - white lie? I was in the hall, waiting for the doctor. My timing was good, for I’d only been in the hall for about 30 seconds... Continue Reading →

Welcome and Re-Welcome!

For those of you who are first time visitors/followers to my blog: Welcome! For those of you who made the journey from my former blog to this blog: Re-Welcome! So that everyone, new followers and old friends, are on the same page, a brief recap: I started this blog last summer as a way of... Continue Reading →

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